Change Can Only Happen in Me

Yesterday is what it is
It cannot be changed
Change can only happen in me
How does yesterday affect
How does it change me?
These are the questions
I seek answers to daily
Yesterday is in my mind
Daily
Spinning every moment
Of now into something
It isn’t
And I don’t know how
To change that yet

Change can only happen in me
I look at the past
The hurts
The joys
What do I want to remember?
So much is missing
So many holes
Yesterday is what it is
The events don’t change
The good or the bad
But what do I want
To relive
The pain or the joy

Moments of joy
Out numbered by pain
But what joy they are
When held up to the pain
Without the pain
The joy can’t be measured
And still the pain is what I act on

Yesterday is what yesterday is
Change can only happen in me
Choosing the joy
Means letting go of the pain
What purpose does it serve?
To live in the pain?
Why do I hold on?
To let go is to risk
To risk is my fear
But without risk
I stand still as a post

Let go of yesterday’s hurts
Hold on to the joys
That is the mission
The journey

Am I up to the challenge?
Can I really let go
Take the risk?

Time will tell
Tomorrow will be yesterday
Soon enough
And then I will know
Did I make the choice?
To change my view
Or have I held on

Yesterday is what it is
Change can only happen in me